Last day of Teens Alive came and went just like in a snap of moment .
1 moment I was trying very hard to wake up .
The next we were saying goodbye .
fcuk , time flies !
Next thing you know it , you`ll be at my wedding with *ahem**ahem*
only god knows .
thus people, indulge in life .
Yesterday night had a VERY fun conversation with Faris . He suck but he is sure fun to kill .
I am planning to make a comic or something like that .
and DAMN , while I was singing my heart out the rain falls .
and Fattah was like "You see lah , Zihan!"
thanks for ATLEAST saying something to me dude .
Okay yay ! Lets dance naked on the DANCE FLOOR babey .
:D
I miss Aliya after hearing TONS of Lily Allen .
I miss Atika and her lazy-ness .
I miss Shahirah and her very cool expressions.
I miss Nadiah and her LOUDLOUDLOUD burps.
I miss Khadijah and her slenger-ness .
I miss Maya for her open mindedness .
I miss Meeta and her "KAKAK" thang .

cut it short ; I MISS SCHOOL !
I miss all {okay maybe NOT ALL} the hot guys in school who probably graduated and are living life as they should .
:(

and have I ever told you how HOT hyrul is right now .
no ?
damn me .
:S

DO YOU RECOGNISE THAT FCUKING GIRL IN RED ? damn i was soo dumb .

Okay I wish life wouldnt bring me here but it did .
Mother HAD to bring me back to Teens Alive !
And then I meet HALF of the Teens Alive people , the rest who were supposed to come werent there .
So there were like 8 people .
4 girls & 4 boys .
Its only a 3 day course so later would be my LAST day there .
I wouldnt want my past to haunt me back would I ?
Nabilah and her sister , Hidayah and her 2nd SISTER , Nadirah .
WE HAVE LOADS OF FUN making fun of each other though . HAHA !
And theres Fattah , Imran and Hakim and Asyraf .
So THATS ALL .
Pathetic .
Fattah like wouldnt talk to us anymore .
I mean if we talk was due to ustazahs forcing us to do discussions and all that jazz .
Whatever .

I dont think media is being fair .
HE IS THE JUARA , but only 2 years ago .
Its not like he is talentless or something .
Its not like he has no X-factor or whatever .
Why in the world isn't he producing an album ?
I dont get it .
IS HE NOT MAT ENOUGH to be a malay singer ?
Portrait a MAT to represent a MALAY singer huh ?
oh like Bugs Bunny Tooth over there !
OH HIS PERFECT !
:{
The contract said "ALBUM" I suppose .
But nothing was agreed fully .
Pity dude .
Whats the use of all these talent shows when talent is taken over by looks ?



whatever .
pissed with everything .
and fcuk , I spent my afternoon to move my bed and redecorate my room and mother thinks the POSTERS are obscene !
ITS NOT LIKE THE POSTERS ARE ABOUT SATAN or something !
ITS TAUFIK for crying out loud !
I LIKE MY ROOM AND YOU CAN`T TOUCH IT !


piss off people .
watch that drama queen .

alright still .
Went to Roslan`s birthday dinner with Farah . :D
Lucky she was there , or not I`ll be like a total dimwit cause no one really talked to me and thus, I felt left out .
:(
maybe cause I cant really find the time to support the hot people
or
maybe being too idiotic and lame .
or
I just have a FCUK attitude .
SO MUST CHANGE FCUK ATTITUDE .
A new year resolution .
atleast i`m not like her bragging about how her breast got sucked up by her OH-SUNNGUH-FAMOUS cousin !
AND NO ITS NOT DARWITA ! sheessh .
:(

truly deeply sorry .
to the yesterday fans (Kak Fiza , Kak wana , Kak Jamilah , Kak Aishah , Kak SV and many more who hates me I assume ) ,
Sorry for my very crap attitude that I didnt really notice .
:(
I doubt they read my blog anyway .

ANYWAY LETS NOW TALK ABOUT MY LOVE TO ROSLAN !
haha .
not my dad whom is RUSLAN
may daddy rest in peace . insyallah
i hope your happy watching me from there daddy .
and boy , have I grown since you saw me .
OKAY , he wont read my blog I suppose .
he can feel me wheeeeeee !~

ANYWAY !
ROSLAN !
I love love love his funny funny attitude .
And he is SO SO HOT !
okay HOW many times have you seen or heard or read " HE SO HOT " by me ?
Probably like a gazillion !
Anyway , whenever we took a group photo he will make stupid , nonsensical jokes about the person who took for us .
AND HIS REASON ; so that the picture would turn out nice cause of us LAUGHING .
in love lalalallalala.
He LET me and FARAH touch his muscles .
:D
I am SOOO not kidding !
he did! he did !
Farah didnt dare .
AS USUAL .
But she did thought of what would happen if she accidentally grabbed his butt .
And due to my LOUD voice , he heard what I was saying and he was like " Thats SO OBSCENE " oh , that was also how I was given the permission to touch his muscles .
:D
PROUD !
i could brag all day but you know 'CHOP-CHOP' time flies.
though breast bragger there had ALLL HER TIME TO BRAG
She must be SOO proud of herself .
Anyway about finding him a present details , please proceed to FARAHAMIRA`s blog Until now I still feel like I`m flying on a cloud .
XD

I am very full of crap nowdays .
Feels great though .
I have no idea when is extra choir sessions starting !
I think it has already started !
DAMN !
PLEASE CHOIR PEOPLE CONTACT ME !
:(
I lost the list of dates .
bad geisha ! bad bad geisha !
until then roslan ,
i cant get enough of your lalalala.

ALIYA AND NADIAH finalllyyyy have a blog !
haha welcome peeps .
:D

HAHA !
I`m back from BALI and it was superb sekali!
The surfers there were soo hot and bicepy !!
They have more biceps than Mr Iskandar actually !
And there was this indo surfer boy , i assume his 17 or so , HE WAS SOO HOT TOOO!!~
OMG !~
and i think his loaded cause his mum was very tai-tai(ish) !
she just sit at the breakfast table in the hotel and smoke her way to death,I suppose, while her son goes surfing at the opposite beach !
:D
so hot with his click-five-hairdo !
We stayed in Hard Rock Hotel which was soooooo nice and the rooms were huge with sceneries of the beach or the swimming pool or the kampung behind the hotel !
over there time flies VERY quickly !
around 5 a.m it looks as if it was 7 or 8 a.m YET our timing and theirs are THE SAME!
Then when its 6 plus in the evening , it looks like 7.30 or so .
and the shopping there is more or less the same as Singapore , so I did not buy lots of stuff cause I rather buy in Singapore where the CHRISTMAS SALE is COMING!!
but it probably be next month ,
:(
sadly ,
but never to be too sad ,
heres some holiday photos !
:D

Whatever lah .
Why signed off after saying that I'm a BAD FRIEND ?
Got no balls ?
Wait , your not a guy anyway .
Come on lah . You wanna talk , lets talk ! Don`t block someone !
Whoa ! you must feel totally brave after saying I`m such a bad friend ?
BooHoo ! I`m crying buckets !
I feel that I wanna be prostitute and run away from this country and change my name ?
EARTH TO BROOM ! Never heard of sarcasm ? Too busy doing god-knows-what !
yaya . I feel so betrayed .
SARCASM !
I dont feel betrayed by you putting me in your OH-SO-WONDERFUL 2nd link .
The one above your sisters !
{I feel so pleased now !}
But why, I must questioned , must you waste your loads of energy of copying my link and putting me in that row?
Even after I said sorry .
And I meant that sorry .
So yes I'm making such a BIG FUSS about you putting me in my 2nd link !
Because NOW I know sorry dont mean ANYTHING to you at all .
Yes I wanna be in EVERYONE`s love-d link cause I`m a fairy princess whee !!~

So sorry means NOTHING TO YOU ?
Fine .
If you think I am such a BAD friend and you feel betrayed by me .
By all means , hate me .
ARGH!
Yes I was wrong to make such a big fuss about the links but you must understand the jalan raya was for my 2/5 and 2/4 friends , wont you be awkward being the only 2/B ?
Its no matter express or normal mind you .
Khady felt bad , so I said that .
I also shouldn't have said that your a miss of the universe thingy .
Whatever .

You know what ?
I cant be bothered after you read this and still wanna post something that makes me SO SAD that i wanna be a prostitute .
Come on lah we are no more in play school .
This is Secondary School .
You lose one friend you gain more .
Like ATOMS !

So you wanna play this pretend game that i never knew you and you never knew me ?
I'll be laughing my ass off .

thank you for reading and BALI HERE I COME !!!!!!!!!!
hyrul so hot . he so hot he makes you melt :)
GO HYRUL !
*i'm a cheerleader*



maya i saw your cleav--- ,
opps .
meeta , future Mrs Dave :D
haha
pink much ?

farah its finally official !
i can finally go out !
and hyrul anuar is super duper hot NOW !
gawd look at his biceps !
not like he was not hot during his Anugerah days but after being bold and getting roasted by the sun during NS surely made him hotter than usual .
I think if you shave your hair and make it grow , it would turn out nicer than EVER !
Maybe I should go bold then when my hair grows it would turn out beautiful like those celebs .
HAHA!
maklum lah nak di-loved by everyone cause I`m stupid a idiot with small tits :)
anyway darwita , thanks for reading my blog ! I am very touched !
*sniff*
but i wish Hyrul Anuar would take his precious NS time to read my blog !
haha .
i am such a loser .

okay here is a picture of the hot hot hot sensation hyrul anuar ;
OMG !
i order you to MELT NOW !
*oh so fabulous*

okay let me show you another hot guy .

and another;

"Hello, dah siap ke belum, teman-teman semua dah tunggu ni..."
you cannot deny his hot !

and this guy from one of the New Paper New Face guy models !
he was only wearing boxers ! damn , my sister picture of him was blur cause we were shouting and screaming like little school girls !
oh and heres SHANE WEST !
his from Walk to Remember .
A very sad and beautiful story :(
okay , sharifah would agree with me !
oh pretty curls !
:)

okay i survived and enjoyed my last jalan raya and regretted and pull back that post about B.W .
thanks for taking the time to read .
oh to toots ;
even though you still hate me and put me in your un-favorite link of yours , i still dont hate myself for being a nice bitch in front of you and bitch about you on my blog .
so sad that i might possibly kill myself :'(
Hari Raya is finally DONE ! but I still didnt get much money !
Damn to time flies :(
and to the people I love ; thanks for pointing out to me that I`m ugly and what a HUGE difference I was during my baby days and now .
and so if i die of being bulimic , blame me .
yar . thanks for caring :D

eh , i should get an award for making people feel bad !
shame , they dont have that in the emmys .
maybe i should make my own
i`ll hire maya to come up with the nominations .
:)
i`ll hire Aliya for entertainment business.
:)
i`ll hire atika to be the host.
:)
i`ll hire shahirah as er .. stage designer and director(!)
:)
i`ll hire meeta as a cheerleader , for god-knows-what .
:)
i`ll hire nadiah as a microphone
:)
i`ll hire khadijah to choose the hot guys to usher the winners .
:)
i`ll hire farah as my fire-breather !
:D

its all set !
i am on my way to Hollywood babey .

another jalan raya on thursday .
lets just hope i`ll die tragically .
:)
like i said dont make me organize ! i`ll just bore your tits out .

I am here to apologize of my behavior during jalan raya . .

To B.W and my other wonderful jalan friends ;
I am sorry I am those kind of lame girls who sikit-sikit nak merajuk , too sensitive and/or too emotional .
Cause I am spoil brat unlike B.W who is very sophisticated and gentle and is lovable to all.
Yes I am an idiot spoil brat .
I am sorry I see crying as a way to release all my feelings and to grab the pity from you .
Cause again , I`m a spoil brat .
I`ll cry when I dont get things .
I am sorry I`m fat and ugly unlike B.W who is almost perfect with a slim body , and muscles everywhere.
I am also sorry I`m just not perfect and I`m trying VERY hard to not be those girls who sikit-sikit nak merajuk and wont be hated by friends whom already hate me .
I am sorry I was bad in organizing this jalan raya .
So please next time dont appoint me as your organizer and take this matter to your own hands.
I am sorry cause I have no mats under my block to disturb me
Cause to me their just brain-less gooballs who understand nothing but breast and vaginas .
But again, B.W thinks otherwise .
They really scare the hell out of B.W and that I must understand and not think shes stupid or something .

So thus , the lesson to be learn here is
Think of others before yourself although some really think highly of themselves .
:(
Thus again , if your guys wanna meet up behind my back and hatch a plan to kill me , by all means "THANK YOU"
And B.W ; Thanks for walking off without even saying goodbye . I then realize how a goob I was and how you hate me .
I am just very sorry I lack in everything .

If you guys see this post as a way that I was being sarcastic .
I guess you might wanna reread this twice or something cause this is how I put my feelings into words.
If I hurt you by posting this then I have no dang what to say .

*now leave me while i merajuk in the corner*